Life is really a merry-go-round, huh? You go up and you go down on your pony. It's a never ending cycle. One minute you're really happy, the next even the tiniest of actions can bring that all back down into the deepest hole. Yet again, the tiniest of actions can bring that all back up high high into the sky. This goes to prove how unstable and vulnerable us humans are, unless of course you are that great so as to have mastered to control your emotions, and learn to forgive and forget. That, my friends, is very very hard to do. But I think these flaws and how we change over time make us such beautiful creatures. It's what makes life interesting. =]
Despite feeling so so so down the 2-3 weeks ago, I can say that I'm a really happy bunny now. Lol. What has happened, happened. All we can do is look forwards and move on. No use thinking about the past as there's nothing you can do to change history or take back what you've done. Time is always, always, always the key to healing ANY wound. Let it be hours, days, or even years, depending on how forgetful and forgiving you are. Lol. Anyway, what I'm saying is that thing's have changed, and James and I are a lot better than before. I thought things wouldn't go back to the way they were after what happened last time. Instead, I feel so so so much more loved now, especially after his birthday dinner.
Celebrated James' 21st last weekend. He was really upset that some of his bestest mates couldn't make it to his dinner. And his dad didn't really prioritise that evening well. I just felt so useless as I don't know much people here. No strings to pull. The only person I could really persuade was his dad. Although obviously he would come, I sent him a text nonetheless ensuring that he'd come to James' dinner as I could tell James was quite upset that his dad was probably not coming. That dinner turned out fine. And most importantly, James was happy. I am happy when he's happy. Before we slept that night, he said some really touching stuff, made me cry ='[ He hugged me so tightly to sleep, and gave me the most kisses when I'm asleep (even though asleep, but I could feel.. lol..) ever! =D
Then the next day, we went for dimsum with one of James' best friends, Max, and his gf, Shristi. A double date basically. I asked them the night before whether they wanted to go as I was craving dimsum, and surprisingly, they really wanted to. I really enjoyed my time with just the 4 of us. I am really glad that not only am I on closer terms with his family and his friends, we can get along well. I actually really like them, and like spending time with them.
I just finished my exams today. Fail for sure!!!!! Die!!!!! X_X
Going on James' driving experience this Saturday. I will be his "la la dui". I won't be surprised if I ended up cross-eyed by the end from seeing him go round in so many circles. Haha..
xoxo