Exams coming up next week!! Omg, omg, omg! For one subject, I am actually still learning everything from scratch! Like everything's brand new to me! Omgggg.. The other subject is ok. I just have to brush up. But I can't afford to fail! These exams are very very very the expensive!!! =S=S Wish me luck and pray hard for me people! Really need it!!!

I just realised I haven't updated my blog in a month now. Just celebrated our new 1 month anniversary 2 days ago. =)=) You know how when you just started dating, you celebrate 1 month anniversary, then 6 months, then maybe 9 months...... then it progresses to 1 year anniversary, then 1 1/2 years, then 2 years so on.. But I don't care! I want to celebrate as many "monthisaries" and anniversaries as I want. Just because this relationship is full of lurve that will never die down. Lol!!!

But speaking of it, we went through a nearly-break-up phase YET AGAIN! We both were drunk I guess. And omg, I did something I never ever ever ever thought I'd do! I went ballistic man! Running into the middle of the road when cars came, lying down on the road etc. Omgggg.. CRAZYYY!!! Seriously, I never knew I had it in me! =.='''''' Things kind of went really out of hands, and he slapped me huge in the face. Bear in mind, I have NEVER been slapped before and neither has he ever slapped someone in the face before! But no matter what happens, a guy should NEVER EVER hit a girl, especially if it is a girlfriend you love so much. And the fact that he hit me...... I don't know. I guess we're both fine now. It's just that what was done that night was irreversible, and I'd say a little part in me will never forget what he did.

Also, I just feel that I am willing to go that extra mile for him, sacrifice for him, but he won't do the same for me. He doesn't even remember the things he's promised me. I am not materialistic at all. Well, maybe to a certain extent. It's common for girls to want things from boyfriends, no? Anyway, my point is that, I don't care how much stuff he gets me. The fact that he always tells me how he has to do things because he's promised others. But when it comes to me, he doesn't even remember what they are. I just wish he'd understand it's not physical objects I'm asking for, it's small gestures like leaving me sweet notes so I get to see them when I wake up in the morning and he's not there, or saying things like "I appreciate what you've done for me" and things as simple as saying "thank you" or "I love you". But I guess being "sweet" is not in him.

Ok, enough of me ranting. It's James' 21st bday this Sunday (22nd Nov). We're going to London in the weekend. Going to have a joint birthday banquet dinner with another friend called John. They have the exact same birth dates. Lol.. The dinner will be in John's dad's restaurant in China Town. It'll be cool. I got James an Aston Martin and Rally experience for his birthday. Basically, he gets to drive an Aston Martin and drift around. He likes racing and drifting..... you know... guy stuff. Lol.. So hopefully he'll enjoy his day on the 28th. He better!!!! The gift costs like B$400+!! Officially bankrupt!

xoxo

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