To be honest, I am not very happy with my life here in the UK. I've felt this way for a long long time already. The only comfort I have here is James. And I do feel really lonely at times. For one, I don't have many friends here. All my friends are James' friends and no matter what I am "James' girlfriend" to them, and always will be. Unlike to the LMLs, I can be the real me, talk like the real me and be as lame as I want and have everyone laugh together coz that's precisely the whole point - having fun with each other! I don't get these kind of relationships here, and it's really sad. And also, instead of getting a job back in Brunei, I am spending my parents' money to study abroad. The guilt and pressure in me keeps piling up each day. I need to get a job here so I can support myself. But at the same time I am also studying, I don't think I can pull off both together. =(=(

Having said all these though, one thing about me, my motto in life is to SMILE :). No matter what happens, just put a smile on your face. I know it's easier said than done. But every time something comes up to beat you down, instead of complaining why the whole world is against you, wouldn't it be a better time spent if you spent time thinking on the bright side of things to make yourself smile? And in turn, use this smile to face whatever problems lie in front of you.

This attitude towards life has helped me through a lot of tough patches in life. I know a friend that has been going through a rough time. So I want to share this with not only him, but all my friends so that they won't forget to smile.

Life's tough. All we can do is try our best. =D